Abba Father,
I read the Simply Youth Ministry email today and I loved it. I loved it because it spoke truth, hard hitting truth that makes you take a gut check on how relationship with You. Last night too, I thought about that. I thought the one thing I lack greatly as a youth pastor is time spent with you praying about the youth you have given me. I know I need to get better at that. Well, my goal is to blog on here Lord, every day, especially about the youth and to know that by doing this I can spend more time with you, and I hope that it can be quality time too.
Father, I know that I am dealing with some type of anger issues of late. I feel stressed and impatient. I WANT to lose my cool, almost as if I am daring someone to give me a reason to blow my top and to go off on them. I told Miranda last night that the mood I feel that I am in is one that makes me want to just punch someone in the face to feel better. I can't explain why I feel this way but I know that Your way tells me not to do this. Your way is much better and calls me to be of a different spirit. Help me, help me repent from this sin of anger and sin of hostilaty.
I also ask that You keeo Your hands and eyes on my youth. I want to see them grow closer to You. I want them to fall in love with You. I want to see them give themselves over to Your Son to be used to build the Kingdom. I want to see them make smart, wise and good choices that model Your will. I want to see Ashlynn chase after You because she is going the other way. I want to see Drew recover well from his surgery and continue to let go of his anger and to break him into being such a loving servant. I want to see Tyler's dating life be something pleasing to You. I want to see his relationship with Hayley be pure, and kept clean. I want to see Ryan continue to grow, to mature, to fix his eyes on Your Son and to chase after Him. I would love to see Ryan become a huge part in building Your Kingdom. I want to see our middle school ministry grow. We are hurting with only Jane and Sophie, meeting only on Sunday mornings. I want to see them bring 1 friend/person to our middle school night out at Frankie's. How awesome would it be to see our middle school youth grow from the outside-in.
Also, Lord, I want to see my sister recover from her surgery last night. I want to see her healthy, recovering, especially with all she has going on with her life right between working, school and being a mother. I just ask that she can be encouraged through this and know that she is loved dearly. I also ask that you take care of mom and dad with all that they have going on with their health, finances and cars. They have blessed Miranda and I greatly and I want to see them rewarded and blessed 100 times over for all they do. They are generous and loving and care deeply. They look after us, call us, pray for us, encourage us and I am grateful for them. Thank You for them.
Thank You for all you do, honestly, who would love me for al my sins and for all my shortcomings and the lack of desire I can have. You love me so much, You promise to see me through the rough times and I am grateful for the fact You have not left my side.
AMEN
